Carpe Diem

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAAki, will we pay for this long stretch of warmth in January? The temperature has held above 40 degrees F. for days at a time.  To our winter-hardened bodies, it feels like spring. Yesterday it rained hard but today we will have sun if the fog burns off. Aki doesn’t sacrifice today’s chance for joy to appease the gods of winter. Trying to follow my little dog’s lead, I enjoy, without much guilt, the warmth. While she stands guard over Seventh Street from her outpost on the couch, I’m upstairs watching channel fog glowing with sunlight.  Earlier we skied over a trail reduced by warmth and rain, stopping to watch the glacier appear from behind a soft white wall. I remembered prior winter warm spells and how I feared we would somehow be punished by Taku conditions in February if I enjoyed the warmth. Winds named for the glacier they cross to make our lives miserable, the Takus blow when the sun shines and the temperatures are low. They rattle down on Chicken Ridge as our heater struggles to keep the house livable. Realizing that cold winds may blow in February, whether I enjoy the comfortable beauty on offer today, I put them out of mind.  Carpe diem should be my motto, as long as there are enough fish in the freezer, and fuel oil in the tank. OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA

More Village than State Capitol

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On this gray morning, downtown Juneau looks more like a sleepy village than the state capital. Aki and I drop down Gold Street from our home on Chicken Ridge. Only one car passes us. During heavy snow storms, local kids ski down Gold, racing to get in some runs before city snow plows can clear it for the cars. Today, no snow slows our decent to Fourth Street where Gold, now called Gasteneau, starts climbing up along steep slopes scarred with the ruins of the A.J. Gold Mine.

Without the modern cars parked along Gasteneau, it could be 1935. The houses, some original, and others built in the old craftsmen style, cling to the hillside above the bars of South Franklin Street. Strings of Tibet prayer flags run between bare alder trees and over garbage sacks torn open by our ill mannered bears. Stairs serve as streets and sidewalks, some providing the only access to homes. No cars drive on Gasteneau. No one uses the stairs.

As an ambulance siren sounds near the homeless shelter on South Franklin. It’s  the only sound except for raven croaks. Aki and I follow a bold raven along the wet pavement of Gasteneau Street. Rather than fly above the prayer flags to safety, Raven dances up the street with a rolling gait, throwing in the occasional vertical leap. Ending his performance, he flies over our heads and lands at the spot where we first saw him to wait for another audience.

At the end of Gasteneau, we take a stairway street to a strip of South Franklin Street lined with shuttered curio shops. Brightly colored banners promise great bargains on Alaska theme tee shirts and foreign diamonds but there is no around to sell or buy the amazing merchandise. Aki pees here, then poops—for her a double benediction—more honor than the street deserves.  I carry a black bag of her scat along the old Alaska Steamship Dock all the way back to town before finding a functioning garbage can.  We pass the statute commemorating  Patsy Ann, a punctual bull terrier who in the 1930‘s, greeted every passenger ship that tied up at the Steamship Dock. http://www.patsyann.com/story/ Today her statute stares down an  channel as rain water drips off her turned down ears. When a puppy, Aki would bark at this big bronze dog. Now she ignores the statute and two gulls that strike iconic poses on nearby dock dolphins.

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If three cars waiting at a traffic light constitutes traffic, we experience it for the first time on our walk.  Only a few pedestrians share the Main Street sidewalk with us as we enter the downtown business district and climb past the Alaska Capital Building to Chicken Ridge. Inside the Capital, the Alaska Legislators  have gaveled open their annual session. The lobbyists, with their expensive haircuts and suits, must already be inside, following the money.

P1130231The town was built by people following the money. Our drinking water flows through old mine tunnels. Miners built our house and most of the others in Downtown. A huge fish cold storage plant once dominated South Franklin Street, where fisherman sold their halibut, black cod and salmon. Now the street businesses only process the money of cruise ship passengers. Aki and I avoid South Franklin when the Cruise Ships are tied up along its docks, like we would avoid Gasteneau Street if the ruined gold stamp mills still pounded ore. Now in winter, with the mines closed and the ships serving warm weather towns, we can enjoy the solitude of deep woods on our city’s streets until the tourists arrive in May.

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As Common as Geese

L1220080I’d be here on the wetlands photographing mountain obscuring fog obscuring and tide flattened grass if not for the geese. Minutes from the car I spot a good size gang of Canadians feeding just across a small stream from us. Aki and I respect their space, keeping on our side of the stream, far enough away to avoid flushing them. In the process we inconvenience a pair of ravens who make way for us by gliding with their feathered feet down, twenty feet from the trail. L1220008

The wetlands Canada geese, like many of their cousins in the rest of America, no longer migrate.  They have made themselves common by hanging around, filling the air with off-key singing, L1220084and covering the ground with their ropey scat. I still enjoy seeing their white cheeked heads on top of long black necks.  While admiring this local gang, another flight of Canadians, maybe 20, lifts off from Douglas Island and flies towards the locals and then makes a series of wide circles around Aki. I could be holding a tether to the lead goose. On their third flight around us I get it. Aki and I are standing on their intended landing field. Before we can move further out into the wetlands, they give up and fly to a spot on the other side of the already feeding geese. L1220135

For Eric

L1210994Flooding tides, rain, and a warm front worked to take the beauty away from this stream delta. Just last week translucent ice capped rounded beach rocks and white snow brought the innocent look of new creations. Now we have a false spring, all gray and brown. It suits the gulls and ducks (Barrow golden eyes, buffleheads, mallards) but not the eagles, who no longer gather near the stream. It suits those in transit through sadness.

L1210981Rain falls, a soft shower that substitutes for the tears I should be shedding for a recently dead friend. He, a geologist, would have been bounding around the beach gravel, quickly reading the history that I can only tread upon. Years ago, we stood on a nearby beach in night made darker by fog and rain, sharing a unexpected joy at being alive. Most people would have scrambled away to warmth and artificial light. Eric stayed for the wild comfort on offer. He would have found more wild comfort here. May he be at piece.L1220006

Two Sides to Solitude

P1050889While skiing along Eagle River at sunset, we stop to watch seals, driftwood, and small pans of ice move downriver on the ebbing tide. As I always do when seeing a seal in river in winter, I wonder why they enter salmon-less waters on the flood tide. Unlike me, they can’t be seeking solitude for they usually travel in company. My volunteer job at the local hospital this week made me look deeper at the meaning of solitude, which assumes the shape of loneliness for patients during slow moving weekend days. As long as solitude promises me peace through isolation I will seek it in the company of my little dog; hoping it’s isolation will provide curative rest if I ever spend the weekend in a hospital bed remembering a seal gazing up at me from river waters painted by a winter sunset. P1050890

Deer’s Dilemma

P1130206The promise of sunshine after weeks of wet gray skies enticed me to Gasteneau Meadow. I found the promise first fulfilled in a shallow pool of melt water formed on an icy road.  Sunshine and blue skies reflected from the pool, a scene made more dramatic by the pool’s gray, icy frame. Aki posed herself in the reflection, drawn by some smelly clue of an animal’s prior passage.

Sunshine never touched our faces or the surrounding snow for we visited after noon when the sun leaves Douglas Island. It did flood the snow covered line of mountains across the channel.

P1130181After finding easy going on the main Gasteneau Meadows trail I took a snowshoe trail deeper into the meadow where we could see the peaks unimpeded by the diminutive pines that struggle in poor soil. While the snow supported us, it couldn’t do the same for a deer. Its hooves cut deep gashes while moving across the meadow that morning. How odd for me to move freely when an animal born to the place could not. The deer trail paralleled that of the snowshoers but for a long time did not cross it. The deer should have found easier going by moving onto the snow packed by passing men. Later, down a section of the trail that gets less use by man, I found evidence that the deer finally moved onto the snowshoe path. Here, his hooves only sunk a few inches with every step. Does each passing person leave behind a smell? Does it build until wild things would rather struggle in soft snow than walk through it?  P1130191

Battlefields

P1130138Our recent windstorm added more trees to the fallen in this beachside old growth forest. They lay across prior victims, their surprisingly shallow roots ripped in mass from the soggy forest soil. I once morned trees felled by wind, heavy snow, or even old age, as you might the victims of war. With eyes trained by watching a human world never at piece, I wanted to see wind battered forests as war zones.P1130157

But the wind blows without thought of trees or me. Today running water seems at war with its solid forms—snow and ice. It melts both, the snow yielding so fast that the runoff pools on the forest floor before reaching the swollen streams. Melt water cuts straight channels through the trailside ice and reveals good smells for Aki to appreciate. She and I maneuver around patches of softening snow and slick ice to the breach where a clutch of gulls relax on rocks, as if soldiers enjoying and rest and relaxation before the ebbing tide uncovers their battlefield. P1130149

A Second Dawn

P1130101Aki and I walk along the lower Mendenhall River, now a world reduced to black and white by a heavy snow shower. This morning’s high tide melted away all whiteness from the beach, leaving only toppings of snow on clumps of severed seaweed. Fat flakes from the storm try to lighten the still wet sand but end up producing a transparent slurry that Aki avoids by walking above the tide line. We have dusk at 1330 even though official sunset is at least two hours away.

P1130079All the sand bars were under water when we first broke from the forest but now they grow in the ebbing tide. Ducks and geese, probably seeking a sanctuary from two hunting seals, form tight groups that cackle out warning when a bald eagle launches from its beach side spruce tree roost. By the time the eagle reaches the sandbar, its potential prey have scattered. The big bird returns to its roost.

P1130114Having no luck last week enticing a seal with song, I try to whistle in a pair cruising the river. One does change course and moves, head elevated from the water, in our direction. It dives when I bring out the camera. Down channel we enjoy a second dawn. The clouds crack, allowing views of a wedge of blue and weak sunlight that returns color to our world.

Convergence

P1130059Seamus, our electronic weather avatar, told me to forget the morning football games, the second cup of coffee, my recent fascination with the chestnut backed chickadees hammering the bird feeder. He told me to grab Aki, put on ice grippers on my boots, and head for Gasteneau Meadows. The little potbellied ikon can’t speak but he did stand beneath a cartoon cloud dropping cartoon snow on his round watch-capped head and on the number, “27.” This meant that after weeks of modestly warm temperatures and light rain, it was finally cold enough to firm up the mountain snowpack but snow would soon fall. For a short time, we could and did move easily over deep meadow snows.

Seamus’ promised snow held off for the morning walk between mountain hemlock and bull pines. Nothing obscured tracks left by a hunting wolf, snowshoe hares (its prey?), and a struggling deer. High clouds moved to reveal and obscure mountain peaks. Once, they released rays of sun that drew a line of bright dashes across Mountain Juneau. P1130048

These magic convergences come on spring mornings along the Kuskokwim River in Western Alaska. When we lived there in a house surrounded by eight sled dogs, I longed for April saturdays when the dogs could fly over the crusted over tundra, hardly slowed by our weight and that of the camp gear. After a winter of being restricted to snow machine trails and smooth stretches of frozen water, we were free to explore the voids in the government maps, maybe see pure white ptarmigan fly at our approach. P1130069

Aki’s Terror

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERALetting desire triumph over common sense, I pulled up at the Montana Creek trailhead and parked the car in one of the spaces shared by trail users and customers of the outdoor gun range. Aki, having waited patiently until late afternoon for this adventure, shot out of the car just before someone emptied the clip of their high powered rifled at a gun range target. Scared of gun shots and fire crackers, the little poodle-mix charged full speed down the trail to escape the noise.    You might think this is irrefutable proof of my lack of common sense, but consider that someone relocated the trailhead to the edge of this war zone after my last visit to Montana Creek. Also, it being dusk, I had a right to expect quiet as no one should have been taking target practice at the unlit range since it closes at sunset. Those were the defenses I planned to raise at Aki’s inquest. They weren’t needed. The little dog appeared a kilometer down the trail, tail wagging as she trotted behind a homeward bound skier. Apparently my fear of losing my fellow adventurer lasted longer than her gunshot-induced terror.