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Cold and the Taku winds bring a harsh beauty to the rain forest and I want to experience it by seeing False Outer Point at first light. Aki is slow to join me at the door this morning where I wait dressed in full winter regalia—insulated overalls, heavy coat, the wool hat with ear flaps that I only put on in times of wind driven cold.

The road takes us through a mixed spruce and hemlock forest then runs along Lynn Canal where the sun, still below our horizon paints the glacier in pink alpine glow but leaves the sea gap between it and Douglas Island in darkness. Sunrise colors dominate breaking clouds to the east at the trail head. Slick compacted snow and ice cover the trail and I’ve left the ice grippers at home.

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While Aki charges ahead I move slowly through old growth woods ignoring the beauty being revealed by a rising sun to concentrate on where boots meet ice. It’s 10 degrees but seems colder because of the breeze reaching us here in the forest. With feet already numbing and my right camera hand losing feeling I can’t afford a debilitating slip on the ice.  Reverting to the careful tundra walk I learned up north I safely follow Aki to the beach where thick ice covers tide pools and spray delivered in a series of high tides has frozen thick on any rock of size. Little chunks of ice ride ashore on waves, their still sharp angles providing counterpoint to the icy roundness of the beach’s permanent residents.

Rounding a point we find a gang of gulls and two ravens. The gulls ride waves just offshore while the ravens huddle nearby. They and all the beach are in a gloom made darker by the bright whiteness of the glacier and its consort mountains now standing in full sun.  This is one of the few places the birds find food during the winter famine.

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n days the world of man will indulge in the wonderful excess of Christmas while these birds, like the eagles and deer will continue their annual search for survival scraps. The thought deepens my appreciation of family and the gifts given and my admiration for the creature of sea and forest so well equipped to thrive in this place of cold beauty. I call Aki into the woods, leaving them peace and space to get on with making a living.

I May Never Know its Name

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While Aki charges in and out of the spruce forest I stand stunned by the sunlight  on fresh snow and this tree that never photographs well. Other things evade the camera’s telling—fair surf sounding where this salt chuck drains into Lynn Canal, the absence of others, Aki’s paws pounding the snow crust, a surprising absence of wind.  I should approach the tree to determine if it is ash or a homesteader’s maple but that it seems wrong to dimple its surrounding snow with snowshoe prints.

A slough protects the tree’s privacy in other seasons so the recent hard winter freeze offers my only chance to investigate.  Thinking that the next good snow shower will cover our tracks I start forward, then ask Aki whether identifying it’s species will rob the tree of its magic. Aki charges back into the woods leaving me  to wrestle alone with the question.

Whether motivated by laziness or inspired by wisdom I into the tidal meadow keeping the tree a nameless thing of white and light and pleasing shape.

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This close to the solstice, light is fleeting visitor to the salt chuck area. For two short hours a day the sun moves over the chuck and connecting tidal meadow like a spotlight as if providing selected trees with 15 minutes of saturated fame.  With no one else around they have an audience of two, one distracted by the scent of otters, mice, and squirrels left in tracks across the meadows.

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I enjoy the play of lights and darks then climb a low hill separating salt chuck and a pocket beach where frozen sand makes walking easy. Aki and I sit in the sun trying to conjure up a whale or even a sea lion. The whales are in Hawaii and the sea lion must be sunning on their haul out rock.

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I Blame/Thank the Deer

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We are lost again. I blame the deer, two or three that left this easy to follow trail through this morning’s snow. We came on it while following a poorly marked path through thick woods. Aki scented the deer early on, racing ahead in the deep fresh snow then skidding to a stop to stare with weak eyes into the trail side woods. To her credit she allowed them to work deeper into the woods rather than breaking after them like she would after a bear.

This is a quiet gray place livened up by the dime sized snow flakes floating down through the canopy.  It’s the stuff of Christmas magic but it doesn’t change the facts. We are lost. I know we are on the lower edge of the Last Chance Basin and within blocks of Chicken Ridge but without sunlight or noise to guide us we have no choice but to follow the deer trail until it brings us to a place where we can take our bearings. In minutes I hear Gold Creek. A minute more and we stand on its banks, spot where the deer crossed over to the other side then turn right and continue in the direction of the creek’s current.

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The snow started falling last night. Now five inches of it rests on the forest floor with more covering each small boulder rising above the creek’s surface. With snow this deep Aki must leap rabbit like to make forward progress even while hindered by large snow balls that cling to her thin poodle hair. I stop often to pull them off.

This is new country to us but with the creek providing guidance I head toward what I hope to be the proper trail. We find an unexpected gift near the creek — three birch trees growing as if one plant —a rare find in the rain forest. Stressed by living on the edge of their natural range, they lack the sheer beauty of the Northern Paper Birch but I take pleasure in the find.

After the birch we luck onto a shallow swale providing an unobstructed path paralleling the creek that leads us onto to the main trail to home.

I chose this hike to avoid using the car, planning to settle for the expected beauty of our neighborhood backyard. Thanks to the deer we met the brave birch on a previously unseen path.

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Unprepared for the Flick of God’s Wrist

One hundred and forty-five years ago today Mother Russia gave the United States the keys to Alaska. We celebrate the anniversary by heading into the mountains. Aki, who loves snow above all things (other than cheese) finds a blanket of it covering the meadows. Dashing from the car she speeds her way up and then down the trail while I measure the cold and wind. I’ve underdressed for this stiff wind whipping away my body temperature even through rain gear.  Oh well, I’d planned on visiting the sheltered woods drained by Fish Creek later anyway. “Sorry Aki, we won’t be here long.”

The first snow always catches nature unprepared. We see submerged lilly pads, still in the process of fall die back, through a pond surface made opaque by snow. A blue berry bush still in high fall color struggles to shake over its new white coat. They were unprepared for the flick of God’s wrist that brought this early taste of winter.

We stay longer than originally planned, knowing that our fickle weather will soon bring a cleansing rain to this world of white. Aki, not yet toughened to winter cold is happy to hop back into the car. She is just as happy to hop out of it at the Fish Creek trailhead. Here surprising shafts of sunlight break through cloud cover to enhance the beauty of fading fall color. I spot a porcupine, upper back almost devoid of spines, gnawing the bark of a willow bush.  Aki, distracted by some dog’s pee mail, doesn’t spot the little guy.

If allowed to get too close to a porcupine, a dog can end up with a mouth and face full of quills. Aki, who seems to think of them as slow moving dogs, has managed many close encounters with these spiny guys without picking up a quill. Not wanting to tempt fate I pick her up and we walk past the feeding porcupine.

The thick woods along Fish Creek are still holding off winter. Most bushes are in fall color while some skunk cabbage still sport green leaves. Almost bored after experiencing the snowy drama of the mountain meadows we spend little time in the old growth, finding the strongest beauty in a yellowing leaf apparently too stubborn to join his fallen neighbors now covering the forest floor.

 

Leaving it too late

I am trying to ignore the voice that rises up the mountain from the mouth of a woman heading this way with at least one friend. It never stops or slows. Aki looks forward at a small family ahead of us on the trail. They stop, having just crested the saddle so their toddler can ride a diminutive bicycle around them.  The mountain turns in a Fellini set but without nuns or umbrellas. We have left it too late.

Normally early risers, Aki and I would have been climbing up this mountain slope at daybreak but for errands and an appointment in late morning that could not be missed. We pass the family, nice folks with quiet voices, and continue to a mountain ridge said to offer a view of Admiralty Island. The voice and her friend pass the family and continue apace with Aki and I. Showing no sign of weakening it fills the air with stories of things that happened far from here and that mean nothing to me. The voice will follow us to the top.

Seeking the smallest solitude I lead Aki off the dry gravel road and onto a wet downward curving muskeg meadow. In minutes we hear only a tiny wind. I’d meant to come up here on the sunny weekend day in late September that we spent in the Fish Creek woods. This meadow would have been a persian carpet of colors that day.  Today only low bush blueberry brush and free standing  deer cabbage leafs offer some red drama to go with a few grass clumps still showing gold and yellow beauty. Most everything else has faded to early winter brown. 

We walk where the wind strikes hard at the mountain shoulder before bending downslope to the sea. Few plants can grow more than a foot off the ground. Only wind sculptured mountain hemlocks and the stripped carcasses of gnarled spruce reach high enough to bother the wind.

Have I mentioned that the ground and all its plants carry a heavy load of dew drops that soak Aki and my shoes. At first I accepted it as the price of escaping the voice then saw the dew drops sparkle with sunlight turning the brown corpses of skunk cabbage into works of art.

We find a patch of low growing blueberry bushes that still hold fruit. While I take a picture of the berry forest Aki the brat invades it, knocking over ripe berries as she goes then gobbles up the ones that caught her eye. I manage to find the two or three berries that escaped her pillaging and pop them in my mouth. They taste faded as the colors that surround them. We left it too late. 

After The Salmon Have Gone

We are having one of those joy after sorrow moments that come in the Fall.  The hard rain and wind of last week ended at daybreak and for a precious few hours there is sun shining from a blue sky. We should be climbing into alpine meadows, now blankets of yellows and reds but I haven’t visited Fish Creek all summer. In season the place is thick with bears harvesting spawning salmon.  That’s over now that rain driven creek waters have flushed all dead or dying salmon to the sea.

We find the trucks of duck hunters in the trailhead parking lot. Their shotgun blasts sound across the wetlands. Aki is so excited to visit with this old friend she ignores the shots. Soon she is soaked by running through grass still heavy from last night’s rain. Low morning sun shines through water drops clinging to spruce needles, grass seeds, and tendrils of white tree lichen (Medusula’s Beard).

Heading down to the pond we pass colonies of colorful mushrooms that appear to swell by the minute. Steam rises from the lake side meadows and this field of six foot high fireweed stalks now showing the rich reds and yellows of the fall die back.  I look for the family of river otters that hunted here last winter but find only a diminutive raft of ducks. The pond gives a taste of beauty as we head into the deep woods with its promise of more.

Shafts of sun work their way to the mossy floor of this old growth spruce forest. Some acts as spot lights for dying devil’s club leaves,  yellow and drooping as their strength drains into the mother plant’s roots.  Another light bolt shines through a spindly spruce, undercut roots allowing it to fall toward the rain swollen creek. Sun also reveals fresh tracks of a male deer recently moving to shelter along this muddy trail.

The trip tries Aki’s patience. She wants to rush ahead but must stop often for me to make vain attempts to record this miracle of water and light. It fools the camera and its user so I turn it off and stand in a shaft of sun turning the simple forest moss into a yellow-green wonder that strains my eyes with saturated light.  After over indulging, I close my eyes, listen to the stream, feel the sun warm my face, and imagine winter with its icy silence and the simplicity delivered by six inches of snow.

Sunlight on a Flooded Forest Floor

Even after many Alaskan winters I am still a creature that needs light. This morning the view down channel from Chicken Ridge offers little hope for sunshine. Last night’s hard rain has slowed to a depressing drizzle so we drive to a trail that presents well under wet gray skies.

Few cars share the road with us out to the trail head and none is parked there. Too bad. Their drivers are missing a mixed blue and white sky brightened by the rising sun. The trail leads through old growth forest to beach where we should receive the full benefit of the sunny morning. First we pass through a grove of alders on a trail covered with their dried fallen leaves. Aki does one of her gymnastic hand stand pees here, raising her hind quarters skyward as she makes water until her tails wags high in the air. (The picture only captures the beginning of the performance.)  

Brash bluejays and an industrious wood pecker dominate the old growth spruce forest. When we catch one of the jays resting on a partially submerged skunk cabbage leaf it flies to a nearby spruce limb and complains about our rudeness. The presence of the jay on a floating leaf is not as surprising as the shallow lake that now floods over this skunk cabbage hollow. Last night’s rain can’t explain it so I suspect beavers, who haven’t colonized this area before. Later we use transit a boardwalk trail that appears from a distance to float over a new shallow lake dominated by spreading skunk cabbage leaves. 

Light flooding from open beach into the forest draws out into the open where we find blue skies and sunlit clouds but only one gull that stands atop an off shore rock. In winter hundreds of waterfowl and gulls shelter here. Other times we spot seals or whales just offshore. Today we leave all this open beauty to the sentry gull and return to the forest and a trail that meanders along the airy strip of trees that bordering forest and beach. 

(As I finishing writing, a bald eagle slowly flies above our neighbor’s house. From here it appears to arc over the computer monitor.)

Sneaking Through the Bear’s Bedroom

I start this meadow walk wondering why I am not afraid. Aki’s caution making machinery is working. She keeps just behind me as we move along trails made by bears. We pass many sections of grass depressed flat by their now large bodies.  We take inventory of one’s recent meal on display in a large pile of black bear scat. 

A bear could be digging roots behind this high wall of ferns or sleeping in that grass covered swale yet all I feel is peace. It’s nuts.

Steep angle shafts of sunlight saturate everything with rich color that confuses my digital camera but pleases the eye. We scare a raft of ducks to flight from a meadow side slough. Their frantic flight takes them seaward while a disturbed great blue heron rises slowly then flies a few hundred paces up the slough. So much power for little noticeable effort. Herons can’t be hurried.

Beyond the meadow a small hill stands between us and Favorite Channel. We take the gentle trail offered past a Marmot den, now quiet. Last Summer we watched a big male whistle out a warning and then keep watch until the kits dived into an opening at the base of a tree. Marmots (gray Alaskan guinea pigs) could audition for a part in Wind in the Willows.   The big males exude bravery as they expose themselves to eagles until their young reach safety.  Water Rat could do worse for a friend. 

After the marmot den the trail leads to a series of pocket beaches ringed with high bush cranberry brush and something similar to the domesticated burning bush plant. Some of the cranberry bushes manage a decent display of red but all the rest show rouge fading to brown. We aren’t in for a repeat of last fall’s spectacular display of color.

Pushing past a bush that last year screamed out “red” to the sun, Aki and drop onto a plain of flat topped boulders to watch the sea. No sun shafts can make it through the thickening marine layer. Last year we watched two seals move into the tiny bay below us but none appear today. On past visits I spotted the tight white cones of whale spume rise out of the sea and then dissipate into a weak dying cloud. Not today.

This has been a day for the unseen — the bear that slept through our visit, the denned up marmots, the absent whales and seals, the reds that would be browns.

Too Late for Tears in the Fog

Aki waits where a low growing alder reaches out over the rocky beach. We both hear the low mutterings of a nearby raft of ducks. The noise of my transit through brush sends more than a hundred ducks to flight. They are across the narrow river by the time I disentangle myself from the alder.

“Oh well,” I tell Aki, “We came for the fog not the birds.” A drop in wind and rain last night allowed a snake of fog to form over Gasteneau Channel and the Mendenhall River. I hoped to see the beauty of its destruction by the warming day. Defeated by the self indulgence (a lie in with extra cups of tea) I am too late to see the first tears form in the fog to reveal spruce trees marching up the southern  side of the channel. Now this side is cleared of the fog, the remnants of which had formed a soft scarf around Shaman Island.  Looking down I see that a rope of golden brown sea weed fills our usual path through beach grass forcing us to walk on the soaked beach sand. 

“Oh well,” I tell Aki, “At least it is not raining.” This, of course, brings on a shower. We walk into the wet wall and head to where the river meets the sea. Eagles rest on the wall of tall spruce on our right. One by one, they drop to within 10 feet of beach and then with the air of a dignified hunter denied prey by our presence languidly fly down the river. Aki and I barely notice the first eagle fly off. Are we so spoiled by wildlife that we treat eagles like sparrows?  After the third eagle drops and departs I get out the camera. It and the other three to follow deserve at least that much attention.

The ebb tide quickly expands the beach on our side of the river and reveals the sandy wetland that forms the river’s other shore. There our ducks and many gulls search for food. They are on an island now but when the tide drops a little more it will become a peninsula offering a predator path to the birds.

Keeping to the edge of the spruce forest we come to a step rock cliff. What appears to be a well crafted rock wall starts at one end of the cliff, bows slightly onto the beach and then circles back to the cliff.  While puzzling how such a structure could be formed by rocks falling from the cliff I hear a disturbance across the river and turn to see a cloud of ducks lift off from the opposite shore following the boom of a far off shotgun blast.

Eagles and a Walk in Reverse

I can not figure out what these eagles are doing. First one in the mottled feathers of an immature bird lands on this beach. Three crows then arrive to surround him. A fully mature eagle dives, yellow talons extended to drive off the crows. Rather than thank the new arrival, the immature eagle looks away down the beach in a sulk. Two more mature eagles arrive. One lands on the beach and one, to add to the strangeness, lands in a few inches of water just offshore. Is the water bird pinning a scrap of food under the surface? In minutes they all fly over our heads and land in tall spruce trees. We move off for a walk in reverse. 

Aki hasn’t expressed a trail preference today but I want to walk somewhere dry where beauty will be enhanced by the sunlight now breaking through the scattered marine layer of clouds. To add spice on this early spring day we start at the trail’s end and walk to the beginning. In this direction the trail through old growth forest drops quickly to the beach.  Aki shows patience while I stop often to admire the translucent white blueberry blossoms so recently released from the bud and listen to male grouse drum their seductive rhythm of bird love out to the girls. The forest smells like moss washed clean by winter storms.

The tide is out when we reach the beach so I cruise the tide pools looking for life. Aki pokes her nose toward the surface of one deep pool then pulls back suddenly when a tiny sculpin disturbs the water surface. I have the pools to myself after that.  Great herds of tiny periwinkle snails crowd the shallow basins but one green sea anemone decorates a deeper one. A deadly bloom, it holds a captured  critter in the bell of its flower.

We share the beach with a few crows, gulls and one raven who eats an apple under the beachside alders. Time to climb off the beach and take the clifftop trail back to old growth woods. Here the hardness of winter has left its mark. Aki finds an burst of gray-white gull feathers released by retreating snow. We must constantly detour to avoid storm blown trees blocking the trail. At several places we pass through wooden caves formed by the large root wads of tumbled spruce and hemlock trees. In open areas newly hatched mosquitos hover together in tight groups, their drying wings glittering in shafts of sunlight. It is a relief to return to the more peaceful forest trail.