Wind blows hard into our faces here at sea level. We start climbing anyway to reach some open muskeg meadows. A passing dog walker warns that it will be whippy “up top.” Last month we might have turned around but it looks like winter has packed up for the year, leaving behind this sunny warmish day. Wind no longer delivers pain.

Several feet of snow still cover the land but it is slowly collapsing from within.  It has no chance against the lengthening days to come.  Yesterday’s thaw followed by last night’s freeze set up the meadow’s surface nicely for us. Aki dashes in zig zags through the shore pines until she fines fresh deer tracks. I join her and look at the sharp edged gashes made this morning by a large deer’s hooves. Spring can’t come soon enough for him. Later we find older tracks of a wolf who might be searching for the deer.

Sunlight reflecting off the field of snow makes me lazy so I close my eyes to listen.  This is a dessert for birds and therefore quiet so Aki’s footfalls sound like those of a trotting horse on the snow crust. When she settles beside me there is only the wind blowing over my ears and the trees.  It makes sound but no music. Sometimes it mimics rushing water and other times, a jet engine. Each tree is a cello’s string and the wind the bow. Ironically wind only produces music when moving over man made things like power lines.

Aki likes this kind of day with a sun delivering enough warmth for spring. We walk along a riverside trail, passing a sun flooded meadow. Its stream curves sensuously towards us with banks made feminine by a rounded blanket of snow.

Springs in the rocks lining part of the trail have weeped water all winter that froze  into translucent walls of ice. At two places seeping water makes the trail impassable with slick ice. We leave the trail for the river bank below with its snow load now covered with a thin crust of brackish ice left by last night’s equinox high tide.  It feels like spongy vinyl under foot until we break through to the heavy wet snow below.

With now wet feet I stand in the sun and watch a wall of mountains rise into blue across the river. They hide the Herbert Glacier now but we will see it when we reach the beach.

We hear new bird songs and the indistinct sound of distance surf when emerging from the forest to a dormant wildflower meadow. Here is the river delta revealed at low tide, a disturbed Lynn Canal and the Chilkoot mountains beyond. (brown, green/blue, white, then azure). Here, also, is a strong gusting wind that makes Aki stop and start like a counter punched fighter. Once again we lean into the wind and find a wide sand beach littered with clear ice sculptures. One sports a round hole in its middle that frames the promised glacier when used from one side and the Benjamin Island Lighthouse in a whipped sea from the other.

I feel sorry for exposing Aki to the wind until she gives me the, “where is my flying toy” look. She longs to dash down the packed sand chasing her frisbee. The toy is back home so I toss a stick which she retrieves like a labrador until exhausted.

This beach and the other wild places we visit formed Aki. She remembers summer trips here chasing her frisbee. She will be the first to find the trail through the sand berm that leads home. I long to be formed by this place too.

We leave the trailhead in a light snow that adheres to my ski bottoms, slowing progress. Luckily for Aki the snow doesn’t ball up on her fur so she runs unimpeded down the partially packed track.

The trail takes us over glacier moraine. Fog and low clouds obscure the glacier and surrounding mountains but with the new snow highlighting the sharp lines of bare alders lining the trail, there is no reason to look away.

Around a corner we encounter two beautiful young women and their three well groomed dogs. The women chat with each other while watching Aki dash between my  legs when their dogs close on her. Suddenly I’m a basque shepherd with a diminutive sheep dog providing entertainment for these wealthy girls from Paris. They having just stopped in this Pyrenees backwater to exercise their dogs, don’t expect me to speak French. Why should they?  The idea makes me smile until I notice them trampling the set ski track as they walk away.

We push on through the woods, crossing small lakes and sloughs to reach Mendenhall Lake. I planned on skiing over to Nugget Falls for a look at its frozen cascades but warm weather is softening the snow crust. Aki could dance across it but chooses to slog behind me as I break through with each step. We turn around after reaching an iceberg locked in the lake ice. Its calm blue color drew me like a beacon on this foggy morning.  We have been on this lake, summer and winter, many times. Today’s fog renders strange and foreign the glacier and the other familiar landmarks surrounding the lake. With relief, we return to the well packed moraine trail and ski to the car.

After the storm played out this morning Aki and I climbed to a wide muskeg meadow dotted with hard scrabble bull (shore) pines. Aki finds little of interest on the open ground between the trees. She doesn’t look up at the mountains with wide white shoulders rimming all sides of the meadow. In this flat light it’s easy for her to ignore the stubby pines with their twisted limbs buried in last night’s snow.

We should honor the pines for surviving on this windswept swampy ground. Spruce, hemlock, and even the fast growing alder couldn’t colonize it.  This meadow supports some monster bull pines that have 8 inch trunks and reach 20 feet in height.

The meadow is desert quiet this calm morning. I have to strain to hear a distant raven. We only find the half buried tracks of a passing wolf.  Leaving the meadow we cross into a healthy spruce forest rich in bird song and animal sign. Aki tears ahead on the trail as I turn to consider returning to the pine desert. She doesn’t stop until deep in the woods. Aki hasn’t learned to honor perseverance or the aging beauty of windswept survivors. Probably, the brat never will.

Global warming and a bumper spruce cone crop have made a mess of this trail. Blame global warming for the dead spruce needles that darken the snow until it looks like cold cajun dirty rice. Recent warm winters encourage spruce bud worm survival and this is the result. Squirrels and cross bills then decorated this giant’s cajun side dish with short spruce branches, each with several empty cones attached.  I look up expecting to see squirrels picnicking in the high branches, mother squirrels handing short cone laden branches to their children while warning them not to waste a bite. With the thoughtlessness of youth they toss the empties to the forest below.  Wind scattered clumps of tree moss add the final garnish. Chow down Monsieur Giant, the snow’s not much use for skiing.

Heavy traffic has packed the trail, leaving a well scented highway for Aki to explore. She doesn’t notice when my skis stick on spruce pitch or moss.

Leaving the forest in hopes of better snow we find the meadows covered with fine spruce seed chaff as if thousands of cross bill birds had shucked millions of spruce seeds along the meadow’s edge.

We cross the road and find a track set trail to carry us back to the car. It winds past the partially frozen river and then through woods that must have been thick with animal action last night. Aki reads the history of their passing in tracks that cross our trails every few feet. Blue skis break through the flat gray ski overcast allowing shafts of sun to reach the forest floor. Full sun illuminates the surrounding mountains by the time we head for home.

Aki will not teach me

how she reduces the world to one thing

a yellow spot on the snow

that she will not leave until it reveals

everything about the dog that made it.

Nor will she share her power

to grow in mass

until I can not shift her even

after we have both grown cold from the winter wind.

Is it wrong to envy her these superpowers

her ability to achieve true clarity

and physical transformation

while all I gain is frustration?

She is, after all, only a dog.